~***This is to all of my friends who have been wondering what the hell is going on. You know who you are I hope XD ***~

I'm really sorry about being gone for such a long time and not replying to anyone on the internet. I feel like I need to explain why I was gone for so long. It's hard for me to explain though because...I really don't know why myself.

I just didn't feel like doing anything...I went to school only a couple days a week and THAT felt so hard for me to do. I think I might have been depressed and may not have realized it. I did feel upset from time to time, but I mostly just felt lifeless. Everything felt difficult and I would rather just lay in bed for hours. I do usually take medication but for some dumb reason I thought I could ween myself off it(btw, I take it for symptoms that aren't really depression related. Its more for my random obsessive compulsive behavioral moments...so I don't know why I became more depressed then jittery. hjakhdsjhkjajk brain why are you so complicated.)

BUT that is no excuse to just flat out disappearing. I've noticed I've done this before too and I need to control myself. So if I do not come on the internet for awhile please don't worry about me or think that I've stopped liking/caring about all of you because you are all really awesome and don't deserve such great friends.